Big Changes

Okay, so most of the time I just write about what is going on in our lives. Not feelings or emotions. I try to keep things pretty surfacey and to the point. This post if going to be a little different.

So, Background...

I have lived in the same town my whole life. I was born in a hospital 20 minutes from the town I currently live in. I grew up here, went all the way through school here (Preschool- High School) and I went to college at a community college 20 minutes away while I lived with my parents. When I got married, I moved out and moved into a house a block from my parents. Moved to a house 2 blocks from my parents before we had Alden and then moved 5 blocks away right before we had Collyn. All in all... I've never left my comfort zone. I've never been adventurous and left my hometown like the majority of the people I went to school with.

Lyndon and I were talking about how I'm not adventurous and I said I can be. And, I started naming things that I have done.... In the end, I realized they were lousy adventurous ideas and I've come to the conclusion that I am boring. I like structure, schedules and organization.

Lyndon was offered a job in Northern California that is about 10 hours away from where we currently live. We took a second trip down to the town last weekend (without kids). On Saturday, there was meet and greet to meet the congregation. On Sunday, Lyndon preached. That afternoon, we found out that Lyndon was voted in and he signed the contract to become the lead pastor of the church.

I am so proud of him and glad that he is finally able to follow his dreams and have a job that he went to school for. I'm just having a hard time because I am leaving everything I know. I struggle everyday knowing I'm selling the house I love after only a year living in it. I never was able to see its full potential. I have to sell a business I have put my heart and soul into. After 2 years, I almost have it paid off and now I have to sell it (Or sell the equipment) and never see the the glory and success I was hoping for. We are moving our kids away from every relative they have, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, great-grandparents... They all live in this town and we would be leaving that. My kids won't really know who they are when they visit or when we come to visit. And, it breaks my heart.

The plan is to go through the summer with our normal jobs. Lyndon will still be working at the garbage company and I will be teaching summer classes at the studio. We would be moving mid to late August, after dance is over and after Collyn's first birthday. I've gone back and forth through excitement and happiness for this new adventure to anger and sadness and disappointment for everything I'm leaving. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it yet, but in the end, we are moving.

I am looking for houses to buy. The market is way more expensive than in Idaho, so it's going to be tight, but I will do what I need to do to help my husband be successful.

I will keep updating with this and how everything is going. Such a big life decision. Probably the biggest one we have ever made and will ever make....